kathefy

crooked smile---------*

2005-04-28T11:34:00.000-07:00

sometimes. it ain't just abt smiling.
it's what's from within.
which i couldn't find.
i'm tired. tired of smiling.
smiling when my heart is frowning.
didnt show. didnt tell. didnt move
couldn't be seen. touched or heard.
people don't understand
well i dont understand either.
doubt i'll ever come to an answer
answer to end all misery.
the misery that only i feel.
hear. see.
lately
i've been using alot of my senses.
but everything i do or say
never comes out right.
to the others it may seem oblivious.
but
definitely not for me.
i'm being over-sensitive
being too unaprreciative
wanting to much
giving too little.
i'm ungrateful
ungrateful to the things around me.
ignorant for impt things
doing stupid things
why must people say soryy.
i dont like it
it's not a very nice word indeed.
yes it isn't.
if i do things right.
people won sayy sorry.
i'm too greedy.
wanting too much of people's attention.
not realising. i was given quite enough tough
i'm cursing.
complaining
wayy to much
for no reason
just to vennt my anger.
dont know.
i don wanna know as well.
i'm afraid.
not prepared.
many things are approaching.
i don seem ready
in the end
consequences i face
unpleasant ones
whines.
irritation begins.
scolding.
complaining.
bitching
rubbishing.
stupid things.
i do.
oh jesus christ.
what have i done to my life.
it's getting so out of control.
i wanna say sorry
to people i've hurt.
people i've been ungrateful to.
don say sorry to me no more.
it's my turn.
i wanna just it a try
a try
to aprreciate
you
him
her
they
it
and yes.
myself as well.
end------*

ps. not ready for exams.
gd luck everybody. all the best for the next two weeks.

lost child----------*

2005-04-26T22:24:00.000-07:00

recently. my life has been reallye low.
undescribly low.
it's just that i dont give in
to life.
or that life is just plain
unforgiving.
manymanymany things happened.
losing things.
losing faith.
losing hope.
losing trust.
losing people.
people i loved most.
people i care for most.
people who are impt
especially to me.
dont ask who.
for i won wana remind.
remind myself of torn memories.
memories which ain't supposed to be
memories.
i'm not perrfect.
not tryying to be perfect as well.
i wann to be seen simple.
tough i wold consider a complicated life.
with exciment.
sometimes. i just have to let go.
let go of everthing.
to get one thing.
i'm willing to.
but is it worth it?
i don know. but i'm scared.
not because i won gwt what i want
but that.
i'm not known. not understood.
i really don like things being taken away from me.
i hate hate hate that.
especially things that are dear to me.
it torns me apart to see things
turning its backs on me.
leaving me behind.
i FEEL lonely. cann they feel?
do they know? will they care?
guess not?
yes. assumptions.
but why bother arguing when
i know that things are still what they
meant to be.
no consoling. untounched.
cold. trembling.
can things go backkk?
turn back?
return to the old times?
i'm longing for the long lost memories.
memories. that i see
while a smile.
so that it will hopefully
hopefully. heal my poor heart.
lonely.
i don wann to be lonely
i hate you
i love you
i dread you
i miss you
i fear you
i wann you
__end*

ps. calender is done =)
exams are coming. may not be able to update as much.

.:it's the perfect friday:.

2005-02-18T23:12:00.000-08:00

Whalalalas.
i woke up reallye tired today =)
knowing i have a geog test after recess
and chinese spelling before recess
yawns.
hehehehehes.

as usual the morning meeting
and all =)
morning canteen duties
and all.
hehes. it's reallye funn doing them.
and then morning assembly these
and that =)
and return back to class for start of lesson.

first two periods were eng...
jiaxin and i were singnig.
blehx =)
then followed by two period of chinese =)
spellinG! hate that!
hahhas...i dint study and i got 7/10
cool huh?
luck lak.
should be =))
then recess...
canteen duties.
today it went well...
yup. yup.
improvents are coming =))
after which i went for geog lesson..
and did my test.
it was quite alright.
should be managable =)
hoping to pass or better still
get a distinction.
*clapsed hands together*
whehehehes =)
then had science. chemistry today so it was ms lee... =)
it when pretty fine for me =)
jiaxin and i were singing jay's songs again =)
wheeeeeee!
jiaxin rawks =)
last two period was maths.
mr chew taught me "factorization"
i mean the complicated question.
and guess what?
i understood what he's talking about.
*yay* for mr chew =)

after school i went for dance pratice =)
ms neo did a marvelluos job in completing the whole dance
at last =)
hahas.
i kept forgetting my steps.
freaaak.
ms neo was nice. she dint scold me =)
good. good. good =)
was reallye tired after dance practice.
when to change intot the costume for the performance
and river hong bao =)
wheeeeeee!
fitri:malene:gayetree:pamela:rebecca:shada:chermaine:
and ally-dear
were in the team =)
a sweet girl from 2H and pooja
were our "managers"
they did alot for us.
making sure we're all ready, our dressing is okie,
our valuables are safe and many more.
so sweeet of them two =)
wahahahahas.
We made up our faces with eye-shadows
ips gloss and lip sticks, blushers,
shimmering glitters and had two pretty
sticks of blue flowers to pin next
to our hair bun =0
totally fabulas X)
just that our foundation had to be so thick and red,
it's totally unbearable =)
We had one last reheasal
before we set off to the bus =)
we left our bags and all in saint joseph's room.
and ally brought her stuff alongs as she's
going home from the performance place...
soonn we set off for the river hong bao thingy =)
we took a bus with the aungklung performers as well
they're playing the music and we'll be dancing
the mordern malay dance =)
they play really beautiful pieces of music.

after a long ride to the venue =)
we were dirrected by the officers there to a room
hahhas. everyone was lloking at our costume when
they passed by us.
and they said "wow malay dance!"
hhehehes. was so proud of my dance team =)
then we ate at a room allocated to us =)
the food was alright.
we went to see the stage before we performed
so as to visualise the formation of our dance steps =)
hhehes =)
we did our final touch up on our make ups
god ... shada was a good make up artist =)
hehehes =)
then finally, we're called up to prepare to
get to the stage area.
pamela lost her scarf while walking =(
fortunately she found it bacck =)
pamela is soo cutee =)
i was quite worried that they would be late to
join us for the performance =0
but they made it =)
wheeeeeee!
i love them and my darling dancers
ally-dear and i prayyed before we dance
wahhahas =)
all of us were reallye nervous.
there was a huge crowd watching in front of us.
we were so afraid things may be screwed upp =)
the music begins and we danced into the stage.
i was so so nervous i kept smiling =)
fortunately, i dint not forget any dance steps
all with the great help of everybody especially
gaytree who always reminds me "left"
wheeeeee!
she sooo nice =)
we danced as flash lights blinks and all.
finally it ended gracefully=)
the audience clapped =)
wheeeeeeeeeee!
i'm so happie.
after which our whole dance team got down
and cheered =)
wheeeeeee!
we were hugging one and other X)
we were so relieved it's all over
and we reallye did a great job
efforts were reallye paid off =)

ally-dear and i hold hands back to the room
the officers there(a mann)
say "so big already still hold hands"
i answered. =) "we're best friends wht, hehehs"
sweeet.
then we took pictures together =)
many many pictures X)
wheeeeeeeeeee!
love taking pictures =)
hehehehehehes
then we waited for the bus to fetch us back to school.
hehehehehs =)
ally-dear went backk herself first =9
miss her =)
loveee her=)
the bus came very late
we waited reallye long ....
while waiting...
we took PICTURES AGAIN!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
sooo sooo funn.
love this performance thingy =)
oh..ya. ms khoo:ms alya : and mr ismial
was there too=)
ms khoo went bacck herself first.
ms alya and mr ismial came back to school with us.
on the bus, we cheered and sang and chatted.
felt so warm and great.
then we reached school
it was late 8-9 sumthing
not very late acutually =)
but i've never benn in school till so late before =)
hhehehehs =)
first-timer X)
saw the councilors doing PTM thingy.
hhehes
they were so hardwroking...
and they had knocked off work alrdy
they looked tired.
i took my back from the saint joeseph room
and headed for my papa's car who's waiting for me
near the colourful dental truck X)
i bid goo-byes to my darling dancers and went home =)

whole day was reallye tired =)
but the dayy was greaat =)
simply too good to be true
thanks fitri for everything and
malene:gayetree:pamela:rebecca:shada:chermaine:
and not forgetting the managers as well
and the teacher in charge =)
i couldn't have done it without u people =)
love ya guys =)
*muacks X)
dancers rawkks the worlld*
*i ilu someone, always hav & always will.
i [promise]
*spins off =)

.:the little girl:.

2005-02-12T13:39:00.000-08:00

wheeeeeeee!
blog. blogg.blogg =)
today's sundayy.
hehes. i'm talking rubbish.
it's pretty obvious it's sunday =)
but i always get my days screwed up.
i'll never get it right on
which day it is today or tml
or the day after or yesterday.
arhhahahas.
whalalalalalas.
i'm so so happie.
wheeeeeeeee!
okie now...
about the my chinese new year =)

day 1]]
woke up at 10am =)
washed up
bathe, dry my hair this and that.
get changed and ate my breakfast =)
then i kinda "bai nian" to my
'ah ma' and my parents
and i recieved my first few 'angbaos'
wheeeeeeee!
then i went over to my mum's place
after that =)
"bai nian" to her she gave me
"angobao"
wheeeeeeee!
and i was wearing ermx...
a white and lime greent-shirt.
and a dirty green pants.
i wore my nike shoes.
yea =))
my pants was loose.
very loose.
kinda uncomfortable.
but guessed it looked cool.
and then i went over to my mother's
mother's place =)
i call her "ah ma" too.
hahas. i dono lak.
but i was told to call her that wayy lak =)
okie erx... whalalalalalas.
and i met all my cousins there =)
omg! huihui [derica] is so tall and pretty.
so are her bother and sister.
tall slim pretty and handsome.
she's 16--cm sumthing tall...
and she's 13 going on 14 only!
and jiaqing.
he's so tall. and slim now.
omg...stunning looking =)
he's ermx.. 174 i think. =)
hahas. very tall compared to last time.
he's just 16 i think.
argh... cant remember =)
short term memory..
shuyi, she is pretty too=)
wheeeeeeeee!
all my uncles and aunties were there.
recieved "angbaos" again =)
whehehehehehehe.

and kailing 'tzetze' is engaged.
aw.... so sweet.
i saw i din attend her ROM
but i saw her pictures.
so pretty.
and her husband is so sweet to her =)
and i think yan an 'gorgor' is engaged too.
his fiancee is pretty and elegant =)
and yiling 'tzetze' 's baby boy boy is
so so adorable
resembles his handsome daddy alot =)
i think he's called elden.
tht sweet little boyboy. only 1 year old plus
i think =)
and we all chatted talked ate.
after that we went to watched "racing stripes"
it was a sweet and touching show =)
then i went backk home late used the com and slept =)

day 2]]
i woke up at my mom's place.
and got overto my dad's place.
i bathed and then got changed.
was wearing a red and white sleeveless shirt
and ermx...a long striped red and dono what colour pants =)
whalalalalalas.
i carried a "coached" pink bagg.
small one to hold all my angboas and "gadgets"
went to my "dagu" house first.
somewhere behind anglican high.
ether's school =)
and i ate again recieved "angbaos" again
from she and her husband (my em.."da guzhang")
and went to my "gugu"'s house after that =)
i napped there. cause i wasn't feeling too well =)
yea...whahahalas
i'm weak.
she cooked and we kinda "lao yu sheng"
(hope i spell it correctly)
before we eat.
yumyum =)
and then...
she gave me "angbao" (i meant my gugu)
as well as my "guzhang"
yay!
hehehehehs =)

and then i went to my "ah ehem"
(i dono how to spell it)
whahahahalalalalas =)
she's a "baba"
wheeee! and she cooks nice meesiam =)
arh...delicious=)
she has a dog named rahmi!
and a cat named smoky =)
rahmi's so active =)
he's leashed up.
cause ermx... my "gugu" is afraid of dogs
and smoky's furr is so soft.
he's grey in colour.
a sweet thing like rahmi =)
i recieved "angbao" aas usual =)
wheeeeeeee!

then i went home =)
late late =)
hahahs
and then the next day came =)
go to school go to school =)

day 3]]
school school.
study study=)
hehehs.
i'm kharyse's pupooh
nella's nutnut
also's nic's nutnut
angelia's little girl
div's xinxin
and ermx..more i forgot.

hehes.
after school i went for lessons
and after thati went to to visit my "tai gong" 's place
wheeeeeeee!
hehe.. he's 90 sumthign and he's still so heathly =)

day 4]]
i couldn't goo ballet as i had to goo visiting.
i wore a pink blouse and a black long pants
carried my pink "coached" bag again and wore
pink palm shoes=)
i went to my "yi poh" house
yeah... i call her that =)
though i dono wad it means.
but i think it's nice.
cindy "ah yi" was there
"ah kim" was there
her husand too =)
and xingrong and shanese and rachel and lele.
all thosecute little sweetie pie
so little and cute
and xingrong kissed me twice =)
"yi poh" cooked and the food was nice
recieved angbaos again =)
and i wen to my "ah ma" 'a place after tht =)
and we went for dinner at OCC
and came back =))
and GAMBLE!
i loost initially alotalot. and then won back
$25 =))
wheeeeeeeee!
whahahahahahs
i'm so happie
gambled till quite late i guessed.
hahahs
11pm i think
issit? i forgot =)
whalalalalas
okie then went home =)

and woke up today.
had reallye bad rashes =(((
arh... i think it's the food i ate =(

tml's valentine's dayy =)
wheeeeeeee!
hahahahs =)
i cant waiit=)
i love everyone =)
i have to rush off...
buh bye =)
*jumps away*

.:the chicky new year:.

2005-02-08T21:36:00.000-08:00

wolalala =)
i've the time to blogg again.
*smiles widely*
today's chinese new year eve.
way too cool =)
the red and yellow lightings here and there.
beautifully made lanterns being displayed
yummy new year treats.
pineapple tarts and all =)
new clothings..meeting relatives
and "angbaos" too.
wheeeeeee!

today we had chinese new year celebrations.
i had to do duty and was in-charged of 4 faith
they're nice =)
hhahas. =)
they had to do lanterns, but they din know they had to bring
"angbaos"" to do.
so they made cards instead =)
wheeeeeeeeee!
after doing all these cards thingy
we went to the hall.
they had the powerpoint presentation =)
it was nice =)
andrea and jaime were the emcees.
whalalalas.

after that i went to compass with div;sam;nicolette;eilis;kharyse
i had to leave early
cause of my early curfew =)
then i went back to my primary school
unfortunately the teachers went bacck.
saw serene;woamshing;chanelle on the way
they were heading for heartland more.
arghh....i miss them
it had been two years since we all studied in the same school
i reallye do miss them
those pretty sweetie pies =)

then i walked back home =)
the weather was hot.
i was perspiring
the whole timeee X)
whahahahas.
wheeeeeeeeeee!
i bathe when i got home and napped for a while
woke up did some cleaning up of my room =)
then had reunion dinner.
my mum cooked a sumptuos meal where my whole
family gathered to eat at one table.
felt so warmth.
it's just so complete.
i simply love it =)
wheeeeeeeeeee!

for yesterday,
i wana apologise to someone
about something.
i'm sry... i don't mean to do it
when u asked me,
i didn't know what to answer you.
all i knew was that i wasn't ready.
i don't wanna lose u that's all i knew.
and i know i don't have the time for you as well.
it's too unfair to you.
i'm sry...i reallye am.
i'm lost... very lost.
and we're from different schools
this makes matters worse.

yay! tml's chinese new year =)
i'm so excited about it =)
i cant' wait to wear new clothes and get
"angbaos"
and eat thoses yummy food.
dieting is definately out of question for the month.
whahahahahas
i miss all of my darlings
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
GONG XI FA CAI (that's all i know)
wishing everyone good health and all
whalalalalas.
had to runn...
*puffs*

.:the great depression:.

2005-02-05T18:27:00.000-08:00

alrights...
finally again, i'm bacck
it had been so long since i last posted
was reallye busy, now still busy tough
"BUSY" seemed to best describe the pathetic me
busy busy and busier.
whalalalala =)

well...january was quite a tiresome month
lots of happenings and all.
i don't wish to bring them up.
it simply felt too sick lak.
whalalalas =)
2J is nice... everyone's very "guai"
maybe not me lak
but majority is.'
and everyone's so sweet and caring.
and some's reallye hyper and fun =)
everyone's reallye quiet during classes.
very attentive
whehehehes =)
except for some reallye boring lessons
whalalalas. =)
our teachers are nice too.
Mdm hasanah our form teacher =)
a very sweet lady.
and Mrs Lim-Yudong our co-form =)
she's nice =)
she teaches chinese for our class.
for the first time i felt chinese isn't that bad after all.
whehehehes =)
i slept alot during classes.
whalalalalas.
i'm a naughty girl
sometimes i felt so tired that i'm could collapse any next minute.
i'll try not to anymore.
i should learn to be attentive like the people in 2Justice =)

guess wad? I'm in BIBs duties this yeear =)
i enjoy it lak.
tough sometime i feel reallye stress doing it.
it's still very nice.
very challenging.
i love challenges =)
everyone's improving for BIBs.
now the tables and areas are beginging to shine
whehehehehehes =)
and i've transfered to DT
whalalalas =)
it's great!
My new mentor is Janice =)
Janice carries high expectation in everything she does.
She's a perfectionist =)
cool yeas?
whahahlalalas =)
yupyup, i'll miss Agnes too =)
she's my Logistics' Mentor.
whehehehehes

This year's homework is horrendous.
it's ALOT!
hahahas
looking at the mountanious pile.
i just don't feel like doing it =(
but i just have no choice.
whahahlalalas =)
but it reallye helps me lak .
cause this is the streaming year.
i reallye have to work hard =)

I'm in SYF fo dance.
so i'm not running for St cat's this year =(
ahhhh!
i'm so SAD!!!
Why?!
*sobs*
but i'll still support catherine spiritually
i LOVE CATHERINE!
wheeeeeee!

my schedule is so very tight.
i'm not sure when i'm posting again.
hope i can reallye find more free time
till then...
tatas*
=)

.:the purrffect birthday:.

2004-12-26T23:26:00.000-08:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!
wheheheheheheheheheeeeee!
and lots more wheeeeeeeee!
i'm back frm bintan =)
it was reallye fun to bits there...
the beach and stuff =)
just too perfect lak.
whehehehehehehe...
anyways
haPpy BOXing DAY!
and happy belated christMAs!
was in bintan and i cant used my phone there yeas.
so like when i came back today...
and swtiched on my phone
30 sumthing smses flooded my phone ...
and my msg box was full and i had to deleted
some sweet msges i kept.
but the news ones are sweeter.
all the greetings and all.
just too sweeet and candylicous =)
i managed to used half and hour to reply all of them
wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
fun fun fun!
***********
now on the 24th friday bintan...
wheeeeeeeeeeee!
my dear birthday!
and i'm thirdteen
i went bintan....
i woke up in the early morning and stuff
and went to take the ferry...
and it was like a dono how long ferry ride and i lept along the way...
okie. i know. i know.
i sleep alot
but every agrees tht sleeping is nice yea?
way too addictive.
and when i arrived there was a cute little custome thingy breary thingy
welcumin everyone
he has got balloons
and i took a pink one frm him.
pink rawkkS!
and then we went through the custom and all and tok a bus to bintan lagoon...
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
the fun begins here...
we checked in got our beautiful and cosy room
where the view is terrific as it faces the beach =)
and then i changed into my swim suit and headed rightt for the beach
the beach was perfecct
the water was blue crystal clear
not too clear
but still...
clear
muahahahaha
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!
the water feels warm and cool
just too perfect...
i went body borading
i tired to catch the roaring waves and all
it's real tiring...
but it was tremendous funnn...
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i swam for like till noon and stuff and i went for a bathe then for lunch.
and i went shopping after tht and bought a pink sarong.
it's beautiful
i love it!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!
then i went back to my room and had a nap till about 5 sumthing
oh yea...the time is like one hour slower
hehehehess
and then i passed by the toba room where the little kids are celebrating christmas...
so sweeet...
so purrfect
meows.
hehehes
wheeeeeeeeeeee!
i got a yellow balloon twisted into a flower from the clown
it was purrfect
though it isn'tpink lak.
everything is nice on my birthday!
wheeeeeeeeee!
then i headed for the restaurant
i was wearing a pink bikini and a see through pink sarong over.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
love tht dresssing down at the beach side and had dinner there
with my family and stuff plus uncle ralph and auntie jennifer =)
way too cool we drank liquor and beer and stuff.
i ate turkey rolll taste
delicious simply heavenly....
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i played the hand game with my sis and whoever loses must drink
whahahahahaha lost quite alot
and i played the scissors paper stone with uncle micheal
and i won him!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
birthdy luck!
and we kept eating and drinking and eating and drinking
and then the cake came at first my mum fooled me tht there's no cake available
... i was crestfallen apon hearing tht
booohuhuhu
then when we were abt the leave a chirstmas log cake approached..
i was at most delighted and surprised yuppp..
i reallye was.. yeas.
and there was a band singing a birthday song for me just too purrfect!
too good to be true!
cheers to everyone who attended the dinner!
love u all the dinner was purrfect with u all...
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
meows + oink.
and thanks mummy and daddy for everything toos
wheeeeeee!
love u guys to bits and pieces and particles yay!
and then after tht..
we proceed to the lounge for drinking
i was abit drank i guess
as i kind of managed the guts to go on stage to sing "ETERNAL FLAME"
whahahahaha i never thought i would ever do tht
wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
it was realye funn funnn
it wasss just too purrfect for a birthday
it's the best birthday ever i mean it =)
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i'll never forget my sweet thirdteen wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
**********
the next day flew by had morning breakfast
delicious and i when
to change into my swim suit
and then i went for a javanese massage
i had strip off my top hahahahas and it was like an open area
like "what the hell"
okie i stripped off lak
who cares?
whahahahahaha
muahahahahaha
wheeeeeeeeeeee!
the massage was nice!
smoothing and comfortable!
and then after that i played beach vollyball...
very funn!
and when to catch crabs and hermid crabs an all
with bro and sis
and we kept it in a bucket...
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!
just too funnn yeas.. a
nd then bro and i went surfing
i was rapidly crashed by the waves
it was reallye strong
surfing is difficult
the board is pretty and cool
but heavy yeas?
but my strong bro managed to get onto it
3 cheers for bro!
wheeeeeeeeeeee!
after that i bathe and when for a christams buffet...
the food was a widespread.
i dono where to start yeas?
it's just too much! but it was nicce yas?
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i add a lot of cold dish seafoood
yumyum
delicious
i ate ate ate....
then i went to play pool with my cousin and bro
I WIN MY BROTHER!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez!
i'm to elated okie...
'ahahahahahahahass..
yay!
then i went back to the lounge where my parents and stuff were there =)
then we went karaoke (dono how u spell it)
wheeeeeeeeeee!
i drank 3 glasses of cheery temper
it's just too nice yeas?
and most of all!
it's PINKKKK!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!
pink rawks
and yea one thing...
my dressing code for the threee days were pink nothing but pink! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
okie then after that....
i was too tired
i went back to my room and slept....
Zzzzz...
Z......
z....
********
the thrid day!
wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
ate breakfast then went back to room to pack
and checked out.
atee haagen das ice cream yeas?
COFFEE
yum yum
hehehehehes
then i went oleh oleh
where i got my tattooed done
wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
it's preetty
it's on my buttt
wheeeeeeeeeeee!
it's not the realye tattooed kind of coursee
it's a bit of the hannah painting kind
it felt pokey
but it was okie
wheeeeeeeeeeee!
and then after that i took the bus tht head
for the ferry terminal
and we ttook the ferry back lak
hahahahas w
hat a weekend in bintan yeas?
it was fun and enjoyable yas...
actually there's many moree yeas?
i'm just too tired to list them out
maybe sum othere time yea?
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
*******
and to everyone who sent me smses
i'm so happie
thank u all
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
for khariz..
love u to bits and particles
and all love u the most dodo
i love u more than him
muahahahahahaha!
and for samm...
okie i'll try not to be flitratious and
for nella...
i miss u and tigger
for melanie...
i'm giving u my blog add sooon
for james...
i'll takkiare of myself
and for cheryl-liew/lee and bernice
love u guys...u'll are just too sweet
and for juu...
u're so dead today..
worries me..
hahaas
and for everyone...
happy boxing day again
love u guys to bits and pieces and particles!
*******
going out with kharix and sam and linsin and all
to PS tml
we'll gonna have a greaaaaaaaaat time!
watching ocean's twelve!
love it to bits!
okie gtg buh bye
nitenite...
muacks*

.:x'mas fever:.

2004-12-23T23:33:00.000-08:00

wheeeeeeeee!
i'm like finally back!
after all the busying here and there!
i'm now free to blog again.
i know. iknow.
i never seemed to blog consistently
but i was real busy yas...
*smiles*
i din blog like for donkey years.
wahahahalalalalala...
but i'm back yas.
changed my layout again
to x'mas one...
wheeeeeeeeeeee!
i love it to bits
tough it isn't as pink as it was the last time
i tried to put pink here and there
wherever i cann...
wheehehehehehe!
i'm so happie
*******
this time...it's a very special one
i'm blogging ...and it's the day before my birthday
to be exact 30mins more to my birthday
wheeeeeeeeeee!
i just lovee birthdays
and it's my birthday this timmmee!
it's like i waited for donkey ages and it is finally coming
i'm going to be thirteen!
FINALLY!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i'm older ...
"=.=
hehehehes
tralalalalala
tht's what khariz like to sae
i love christmas...!
it's just so niceee
love it to bits
and of course i love christmas eve to bits too
candy canes and red and green
it's just too perfect!
and christmas carols and all
so into the christmas mood!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i'm singing now
frosty the snow man...
jingle bells...
let it snow...
jingle bell rock...
twelve days of christmas...
santa claus is coming to town...
omg...
it's like time flies yas?
and it's christmas and it's my birthday...
new year coming...
wheeee!
i'm sec 2 soon..
wahahahah
tralalalalala....
saw my sec 1 juniors wheeheheheh today..
helped at out the sec 1 registration
so damn nice...
and funnn
ushering parents around...
wheeeeeeeee!
i'm just too enthu lak for tht thing
they look so blur and cute
just like what i used to be last year
whehehehehehehe
love thme to bits
went compass after tht
with who?
my dardar
KHARIZ!!!
love her to bits and pieces and particles!
she's just too nice lak
we ate at mac
then went montip again
BUY HAIRBANDS!
we bought 2 each
all pink!!
love pink to bits!
she bought the thick pink and simple one
and the glittering one
when she turns her head right to left
it just glitter s
she looked like a superstar!
i bought the wavy one
and the curvy one
wheeeeeeeeeeee!
so cool!
soooo pinkkk!
okie then we went home
we can bear to part
we said endless goodbye and finally
we parted
********
then i went home
ate dinner at laguna and stuff
and came back home
i just cannt wait for 12am!
i'm counting down
i'm waiting for smses
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
anyway....would love to thank everyone
for being such a nicebud and firend to me
always being there for me...
love u guys
u ALL RAWK!
and thanks juu for yesterday..
thanks for being there for me
it's was very sweet of uuu...
love u to bits and pieces and particles
u're the best!
i'll be there for u too..
promise =)
*bite uu*
wheeeeeeeeeeehehehe
tralalalalala
********
love u guys
thanks for ur present and stuff
and everything u've done for me
khariz
juu
div
sam
mel
aud
nella
val
sharon
jiang
jeff
pohnien
and many moreee
love u all to bits and pieces and particles
love yaas..
*******
waiting for my birthday...
blog again soon
i'm going bintan tml
be back only on sun
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
tralalalalalala
love him*
i seek for santa...i seek for my star
my wish....
my one and only
*bounce offf*

.:depression blues:.

2004-12-05T23:53:00.000-08:00

boohuhuhuhu-
i'm reallye sad to bits
for many reasons
it seeems
i donno why i'm like this
all of a sudden
but i'm fallin...deep
deep deep
into a dark hole
where i cant reach
to get out
-----*
okie...
boohuhuhu
i din blog for like
urhm...
thurs:fri: sat
well...wasn't at home at all
gone to mama's place
miss mama and sis to bits
i'm really happie to see them.
mama brought me out on sat
wheeeeeeeeeee!
sis had to work =(
so...she din go, unfortunately.
we went bugis
went shopping, ate lunch
ate ice-cream (i lurb it to bits)
wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
and so on and so fore.
it was reallye great.
i lurb spending times with mama!
wheeeeeeee!
cause like i don reallye get a chance to
do it often and stuff.
i reallye do cherish every moment i spend with her.
love her to bits bits!
sis went hongkong and she bought me stuff.
wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
love her to bits as well
she's the greatest sis!
-----*
boohuhuhu
okie...i know..i know
i wheeeeeeed very little
werid ya?
good news or bad news?
i donno
felt it's reallye bad news kind.
boohuhu alot
cause i'm missin so many people
especiallye
someone.
yups. someone
felt reallye foolish
missing someone who doesn't
doesn't even know
me.
boohuhuhu
yups. pathetic
i am i guess
but i cant stop thinking of him
it's tough
yea. it is.
okie...forget it change topic.
-----*
reallye busy and stuff
these days.
cause feel tht i've problems breathing
and all.
rushing here and there and everywhere
doing this and that and everything
sick. what's happening?
i like working like this i admit
but...my health...it's not pink
okie i know pink it's like
a werid description.
but i reallye love the word pink
-----*
must reallye work hard for ballet
must do ms pang proud
must reallye work hard for golf
must do uncle phil proud
wheeeeeeeeeee!
aiya...must worke hard for everything lak.
i'm reallye slacking in everything
boohuhu
am guess wad?
i'm FAT!
i hate that word.
must do more exercise and eat less
veggies may work
i just lurb veggies to bits.
-----*
logistic's meeting tml
i'm real excited for it
lurb meetings and
all=)
wheeeeeeeeee!
cant wait to see
mic:phy:reb:mag and all
miss them to bits
okie i'll end this now
nite nite
lurb everyone...*

.:drained out:.

2004-12-01T23:58:00.000-08:00

wheeeeeeeeeee!
i miss ltc again
i miss lyra again
i miss the leaders again
i miss everyone again...
went nella's house today!
wheeeeeee!
was so very funnn!
phy.mic.aud.nella=)
enjoyed so much...the logistics rAwks!
we did alot...hehe ate alot hehe...
and yup had fun alot!
wheeeeeeeeeee!
actually logistics reallt did alot today...
we completed the timeline and stuff and all
quite an achievement eh?
wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
then meeting ends at two =(
hehehehe
-----*
went to hair salon watched auntie joanne and plp
washhh cutt and and other stuff
wheeeeeeee!
was funnn...
hehe
i'm lame
whahahahahaha
wheeeeeeeeeeee1
then mumie drive me home
and i bathe heheh
i bathed 4 times a day
whahahahaha
wheeeeeeeeeeee!
then i looked at my pink curtains
then i took a mini nap
then it was Zzzzz....
followed by Zzzzz....
and Zzzz....
and Zzzzzz....
and i woke up
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!
at abt 4.00
i love pink!
my pink curtains and bags and cupboards
and ermx...everything!
got readdy for BALLET!
-----*
dress up dress up
bathe bathe bathe =)
and off i go for ballet
wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
so much fun
was at TM
wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
ms pang didnt come
cause ermx...her sista is hospitalised
boohhooo
i pray for her and poor ms pang
had to take care of her cute little baby boy and girl
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
so...we practiced on our own
then i had so much fun dancing with ethur
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
and we played blink*blink
whahaha
we laughed like madd...
wheeeeeeeeee!
------*
went back home
and i bathed again=)
then i watched SI!
was so rawking
watched watched...
and results!
and TAUFIK won!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i love sly! ...but taufik rawks tooo!
sly rawks! wheeehehe!
so happie
hope there's SI in the future aagain
so funnn....
-----*
after...SI
wheeeeeeeeee!
i did the logistics thingy
hehehehe... nella sent me the file!
do..do..do..do
finished!
done sorting things out...
and i talked to dardar kharix
talked talked
and i wrote this along....
-----*
ballet tml again!
wheeeeeeee!
early in the morning
cant attend logistic's meeting in school
boohooo...
miss au.phy.mic and others
-----*
okie fine...
i miss him again
dono why...
sigh..sigh...
like kharix
sigh..sigh...sigh..sigh...
hahas
kharix sigh more than me!
hehehehe...
wheeeeeeeeeee!
okie...
maybe i'll get to see him again.
next weeek?
wahahahaha
hope so...
anyway i'm too afraid to face him
that's really freaking lame i know
wheeeeeeeeeeee!
end this now.
lurb lurb everyone
nite nite =)
Zzzzzz....